Navigator

I am in love with Howard Roark...

I just havent come across a honest confession of love such as between Howard Roark and Dominique Francon, the lead protagonists in Ayn Rand's masterpiece "The Fountainhead". The only one which came this close was dipicted by James Cameron on the silver screen between his characters Jack and Rose in Titanic(I am flying scene). But the scene between Roark and Dominique is a moment of exaltation created due to synergy of intellect and emotions with a touch of honesty and selfless love...Such synergies should essentially result in a "Big bang" giving rise to a whole new universe.Howard Roark and Dominique Francon created a new universe with their Strength of Characters coming together. A fertilization of their perfections could give birth to a new species who will be the prime movers of the Earth.

I have made my reservations for a flight from Milky Way to "Objectivism"...I am waitlisted as of now...

On silver screen a magical moment can be created, but to create that on paper needs a Stalwart like Ayn Rand...

So far the kind of scenes that evoked emotions within me and touched my soul are from the genre of patriotism, pedeatrical pain and paradoxical emotions due to separation...But I didnt think in the wildest of my imaginations that I would emote in front of a book as my eyes scanned through the lines that described confession of love between Dominique Francon and Howard Roark.

It brings out a new angle to love which a lesser mortal wouldnt vouch for but an elevated soul surely would.It clearly depicts that you can only fall in love with "Perfection" and reciprocated in love if you are perfect, and nothing less. You can only associate yourself respectfully to "Perfection" and command reciprocation of love if you are Perfect. Expecting to derive love, respect and commitment to an anatomy of imperfections is nonsensical. You just cant love, respect or stay committed to an imperfect being. Isnt this just true? We all go through this. We keep asking questions if we have made the right choice, right decisions etc in life when we are ambushed by life's challenges. Why do these questions keep cropping up time and again? All these days when I was hit by such questions, I would feel guilty and categorize myself into those who cant accept reality or cant *adjust* like other humans. Each time I would run to what I termed "support systems" and try to derive some answers out of them, which kept me fuelling for a while. Later I would give myself an action to constructively work on my calibrations and expectations I have from my associates in this world.

After a while, I would be dragged into this battle field of blue planet with yet another epsiode of saga. I felt like a fish out of water being strangled in this soap opera of life with co-actors who are a bundle of imperfections. With amateur people for support systems, I derived amateur answers that didnt fuel me long enough and I kept refuelling with them irrationally. I had to learn to find my blue ocean with the remaining time my breath lasted.

Interestingly though I found a Navigator who crossed paths with me and showed me the way to my blue ocean. He has selflessly inspired me to find my best support system in our rich Heritage which is a Powerhouse of Knowledge and I had no reasons to run out of fuel when I had to have "GNana" for a Gas Station.

Today I swim joyously...totally rejuvenated...

As I read through our scriptures and Ayn Rand Philosophy of Objectivism, I have been re-affirmed that I cant love lesser mortals. I just havent found a reason convincing enough to do so. Being in love with Howard Roark is an experience of its kind thats novel and the one which I consider blessed to have encountered with. It also raises even a profound question if someone loves me at all since I am not anywhere close to perfection. I am a just a 55kgs of imperfections. But I have set on a journey to seek Gyan towards Perfection...The world of Krishnas, Ramas, Howard Roarks, John Galts is light-years away...and its the toughest path I have chosen for myself. But atleast I am assured of a win someday. I dont know when I will get there, but I am happy to see myself out of the never-ending Marathon amongst rats doing stressful, irrational laps around perishing imperfections...

So the bottom line is "Love is not Blind. Its quite rational. If you blindly fall in love without a rationale, you will find yourself one day reviewing your decision. Probably you will learn to *adjust*, but that doesnt get you to any higher altitudes...Just love Perfection and accept nothing less...Make Perfection a Habit and a way of life..."

I extend my token of gratitude to the "Navigator" of my life who has been key in inspiring me and helping me discover a stronger ME...who has refined her choices, her journey and her destination. I thank him for being insturmental in a gravitational shift of my thought process towards brighter sides of life...